I did some thinking after getting a revelation. Yeah, I know, how did anything get through your thick skull? I hate when you interrupt me, especially with insults! No, in all seriousness I had made a decision and did some soul searching today.
First off, like Charlie Sheen, I am winning. Since my separation with Molly who I do care deeply about under all the insults and anger, I have lifted myself out of a depression I was in for the last four or five months of my engagement, I have gotten clean of all chemical dependencies and I am on my way to getting a great job. Yes, I got called for an interview at a great place to work and was told that they loved my history and would love to hire me. The Rick that was dating Molly is no more.
What does this mean for Rick? Well, it is time to do some spring cleaning. I have decided that I have no room in my life for people who won't be there for me through thick and thin. Not having room also means that I don't have room for them on my keyboard either. So, from this point on, no matter how much you might want to hear about it I am no longer talking about the people from my past that have hurt me recently. I am taking a stand and moving on. This is my life and the more I let what other people say and do take control over me the weaker I am. I have already started leaving them out of my thoughts, but know it is time to get rid of them entirely from my thoughts and not give them any room in the blog, in my heart, or in my mind.
I am better than I have been in over two years, I feel healthier, I feel fresher, I feel as though I have the world at my feet and all I have to do is bend over and grab it. This change has been happening over the past month actually but I did want to erase some people away until I got out what I needed to say. I actually say that all is forgiven to any and all who have hurt me. Not for them, no, for myself. If these people try to insert themselves into my life again they will be told that I have no room for bullshit, because my mind, heart, and soul is already full of me and the people who actually give a shit and have stood by me through all my mistakes. Anyone else is weak, foolish, and I don't need them. It is all about number one now. So, I say again. I forgive all that have heart me.
About Molly and Bob The Builder, I wish them the best. As stated earlier, I care deeply about Molly and I think that she just needs to get some things right in her life and she would be a wonderful, wonderful girl. Bob The Builder has had my support since we were in high school, so whatever he chooses I just wish him to be happy. That being said, forgiveness does not mean that I will give either of them room to hurt me again. Same goes for the other people that I am thinking about as I write this post.
The new Rick is better than ever before, and he will be that way forever, continually growing and plowing over anyone that steps in his way. I have finally realized that this is my life and no one can make me feel anything, except for myself. Let Karma deal with everyone else.
Winning,
Rick
I thank you for the wishes of luck.
ReplyDeleteI hope there are no hard feelings, as I know it must be as awkward for you as it is for me. It's not every day you date someone who's supposed to be your friend's X-girlfriend, and I can understand your anger towards me, and I can understand the need to vent that anger out on your blog, but did you really need to make threats of burning the trailer down?
Other than Kat not wanting me to (she doesn't think its a good idea) I wouldn't have minded taking you out for lunch some time, but after reading these posts here I can see you obviously aren't too fond of me, understood.
Please however, discontinue your actions against us, eg. the blogging about us, idc, but you gave out the address and caused a major shitstorm of pizzas & death threats. The pizzas were yummy, so thanks for the pizzas, but bad death threats :(
I am sorry to contradict you BobTheBuilder but there was no threat of burning down the trailer. I said that it was an option I thought about but decided against because it was not worth the criminal charges. Therefore it was not a threat, just consideration followed by immediately shot down in my head. I am beyond these silly thoughts and was just typing it to get it out of my head. That is the point of my blog, to say what I need to, give it a medium to be let out, and then be rid of it in my head. As for the address I am sorry that me giving it out had caused you so much trouble but one must remember that the trailer is still half mine even if I can not go to it when Molly is around. Last but not least BobTheBuilder, this post included my intentions to cease and desist blogging about you two so you don't have to worry about it.
DeleteLive, Laugh, Love,
Rick